12/21/12

This is it, they day everyone has been waiting for....

You are 9 months today!!!  How?  Where did it go?

You're such a beautiful perfect baby, you recently starting babbling.  A lot.  It's the cutest thing.  Yesterday I was singing the 5150 song to you and every time I stopped you would start and finish the line, it was hilarious!  Your favorite things to say are sssssssssss, whispering dadadadada, and just screeching.  You're my little screech owl.

You're also trying so hard to crawl and sit up.  You can sit on your own, you just don't know how to quite get to the sitting position by yourself yet.  It's so cute watching you try!

Your new favorite food?  Cheese.  Yep, you eat shredded cheese like it's the best thing in the world, and you usually end up with a cheese beard when you're done.  Seriously adorable.

You still adore your brother, I hope that is something that happens all throughout your life, and he of course still loves you.  Your bond with him is absolutely breathtaking and beautiful.

Here are some pictures of you recently:

Messy face last night!


Rockin' her new Hello Kitty bow that a friend made:


After her bath!


Wearing Eli's old pj's.  How are my babies growing this fast?


The Hammer of Mischa:


Mommy and Me on Thanksgiving:


I love you to the moon and back, baby girl.

So silly...

Hey little girl,

The other day your daddy had you giggling so hard, you want to know how?

He put you on his head, belly down, like a baby hat.  You thought it was the funniest thing!  I loved hearing those little deep giggles, you give them so rarely.

You are such a quiet little girl, you love to sit and watch and smile, but you almost never talk.  Though, your brother loves to get you to talk to him, and you love him so much that you comply.  You two are going to be amazing friends.

You're growing so fast, I wish I could slow time.  Your brother is two and a half, you're almost 7 months, why can't I just freeze time.  I want to be able to cuddle you both and hold you as long as I can.

As I was leaving for work this morning you were so sweet I didn't want to let you go, it's so hard to leave you every day.

As always, love you baby girl.

Getting used to working again.

I finally started back to work on September 17th, I believe, it's been a hard transition but it's getting better.  It's so hard to leave you two, especially with your little gummy smiles in the morning, you're so snuggly and sweet and your brother is so goofy.

Your daddy had surgery on his tummy last week, he wants to lose weight so he can be around for you both when you get older, we want to see you babies walk down the aisle, have children of your own.  Or not, if that's not for you.  We just want to see you grow and thrive and BE HAPPY no matter what your choices on that matter are.

We both love you so much, I hope you never forget or doubt that.

And now for some pictures of my 6 MONTH OLD BABY GIRL!

Seriously, how is this much cuteness even possible?


What IS this, mom?


<3<3<3


Your brother loves you so much, remember that when he is driving you nuts.



Ugh, that beautiful face.

5 Months

Baby girl, 5 months already?  How did we get here, it all happened in the blink of an eye.

You are the sweetest thing, always smiling, grabbing, talking, living.  There isn't a thing I don't love about you.  You love your brother (even though he is a bit rough with you, boys will be boys), you are always trying to grab the animals who seem to stay just out of your reach, ha ha.

I go back to work on the 4th of September, that day will be on of the hardest in my entire life.  I hate leaving you and your brother but I know it'll make your lives better.

I love you sweet girl, don't you ever forget that.

I'm a bad blogger.

Hey little one, I've been neglecting this space because I've been so wrapped up in YOU.  You are beautiful, a light in my life, you and your brother keep me afloat in the worst of times.

You're two months old already, I cannot believe it, where did the time go?  It's such a long 9 month wait to meet you, then before I know it you're not a newborn anymore, you're a full blown wiggly baby with smiles, coos, and strength.  You're absolutely perfect.

Your daddy likes to make jokes about you being a pain in the butt because you're so much more demanding than your brother was, but don't believe him, he is absolutely smitten with you.  You are his baby girl and I hope you don't expect to date.  Ever.

Even your brother loves you, in fact he is constantly in your face.  You aren't really a fan of it when he's slobbering on you, but you love to look at him.  He's probably very interesting to you, noisy, active, constantly on the move, it's no wonder you love to watch him.

We all love you so much.

Love your bumbo:



My beautiful babes:



Mama 'n me:



They don't come more beautiful than this:

Three weeks

How is it that three weeks have come to pass already?  You're such a fantastic little baby, you have your moments, but you make things pretty easy for us.

Right now you have a bit of congestion.  It's heartbreaking to hear you struggle to breathe through you nose now and then, I think it's messing with your sleep.  I guess one thing I never considered was your brother bringing a bug home from daycare, though I don't know how I missed that because he was sick for the first two months of the year.  Oh well, it will pass.

You're so alert now, you were from the beginning, really.  You have more awake time, though.  Your brother loves you so much, I've finally started letting him hold you (with my help).  When I try to take you back he says "NO, MY BABY!"  He's going to be your best friend.

We are so happy you're here with us, you're daddy's little girl already.

We love you, Mischa.  Always have and always will.

Two weeks old!

Well, Mischa, today marks you two week birthday!  How has it already been two weeks?  You've accomplished so much, even the impossible which would be making your dad want another baby.  Who ever thought that was possible, ha ha!

You are such an amazing little girl, I couldn't possibly ask for anything more in a daughter.  How did we get so lucky?  Your big brother loves you so much, too, he won't stop giving you kisses or tickling your tummy.

You are exactly what we have been waiting for, and we love you.  Welcome to your new life.

Last day...

Well, this is it baby girl.  In approximately 18 hours I will finally get to see your beautiful face, tiny hands and toes, kissable baby lips, chunky cheeks.

To say I am anxious about tomorrow is a massive understatement, but more than anything I just want you to be out and screaming and hungry.  Tomorrow night you get to meet your "big" brother, I cannot wait to have my entire family together for the very first time.

I love you with all my heart!

Love,
Mommy, Daddy and the chicken butt.

So close!

Oh, Mischa!  We're so close to finally seeing your beautiful face!  Your brother has been quite hard on you lately, hasn't he?  He's a crazy fun little boy so I apologize in advance if he's too much for you at first, ha ha.

I cannot wait to see you, I love you so much!

03/06/2012

I've been neglecting this space lately.  I just really don't know what to write, to be honest.

Still waiting for you to come into our lives and into our arms, we've got two weeks left before you make your beautiful appearance.  I learned at our last appointment when I met with the surgeon that I will be able to hold you immediately after the c-section, still covered in everything you were swimming in inside of me!  You don't even know how happy that makes me, baby girl.  I want so badly to comfort you as soon as you come out, to try to feed you and love you and keep you warm.  I want to look into your beautiful eyes, listen as you cry your first cries, hold you against my chest and tell you everything will be fine.

I want you so badly I can't even put it into words.

We love you, Mischa, and eagerly await your arrival.  It will be beautiful.

Love,
Mommy, Daddy, and the Chicken

You have a birthday!

Hey there, little one!  Our doctor called today and we FINALLY have a date set for your arrival.  You will come into this world via repeat c-section (sadface) on March 21st!

We cannot wait to meet you.

Love,
Mommy, Daddy, and the chicken.

Almost 33 weeks

Our appointment this week went well, but we didn't get to set the date for the c-section.  In a way it's kind of nice because I don't have to think about it, whereas if we set the date that makes it more real.  I'm terrified of another c-section, too much went wrong and it was too close last time.  The only good thing that happened was Eli was born perfectly healthy, and I'm just going to say that you will be too, baby girl and if that is the case it doesn't really matter what else happens.  I just want to meet and kiss and hug your beautiful face.

You were hiding a little bit when they tried to check your heart rate but eventually you quit being stubborn.  You're going strong at a great 150 bpm!  That's what I like to hear, little girl.

I finished painting your room on Tuesday, I really really like it.  All I have to do now is put your name up on the wall, as well as your brother's, and we are good to go!

6-7 weeks, Mischa, and you will be here with us, in our arms.

We love you.

We're getting there!

Baby Mischa

Yesterday daddy surprised mommy by painting almost the entire nursery!  Your dad hates painting very much (I love to paint) so it was a huge surprise!  He also put your crib up next to your big brother's so you two will be able to sleep close to one another and hopefully become best friends.

I'm 31 weeks pregnant this week, almost 32, can you believe it?  In about 8 weeks you will be home with us, in our arms.  We're so excited!  Your big brother kissed you through my tummy the other night, it was the sweetest thing.

Our next appointment is on 01/30/12, so this coming Monday.  I'm really hoping we can schedule your birthday (since mommy has to have surgery).  I don't like picking your birthday, I would rather have you pick your own, but I love you and as long as you make it safe and sound that's all that matters to us.

You're a feisty little girl, too, you love to kick mommy when she wakes up to go to the bathroom at night, letting me know that you won't let me get back to sleep anytime soon.  I suppose I should get used to it now since we'll be up all night with late night feedings for a long time.

We're having a hard time coming up with a middle name for you, we have many ideas but nothing has hit us as  "perfect" yet.  We'll get there, don't you worry.

We love you baby girl!  Please arrive healthy and screaming.

29 weeks

I almost messed up how many weeks I am, ha ha.  29 weeks, almost 30.  I know I say it all the time but how did this happen?  I suppose one day at a time but jeez, it went by so quickly.

I'm hoping at my next appointment I can schedule my c-section and get that out of the way.  I'm still pretty sad about having to have another section but I'll take it over me or Mischa dying.

I know it sounds silly, but I WANT labor.  I want to feel the contractions, to know that that pain is my body doing what it was supposed to do.  My body completely failed me last time, lack of contractions, I never had any braxton hicks even.  This pregnancy is so different, I get contractions daily and I feel like if things hadn't gone so wrong last time that this birth would be exactly as it should be.  Oh well, let by-gones by by-gones.

Our next appointment is on the 30th, a little less than three weeks from now.  It's so comforting to feel her move between appointments, it reassures me that everything is as it should be.

I feel like I worry too much about infant death, I worry too much that Mischa won't make it.  Husband was talking about getting a tattoo for her on the weekend and I would not let him.  I don't want him to jinx her coming into this world and I said that there was no guarantee that she would make it, there's still two months where things can go horribly horribly wrong, and then a year after that where SIDS could still be an issue.  He thinks I'm crazy for thinking this way, but I guess when you've been up close and personal with infant death it's not something that leaves your mind, especially when pregnant with your child.

Either way, I'm going to treasure every second I have with my baby girl, just like I do with my chicken butt, because that's how it should be.  I think people forget all too often how precious life is and they take way too much for granted.

I love you baby Mischa, I can't wait to see your little nose and beautiful eyes, and to hear that very first scream.

I'll leave off with one of my favorite quotes that I think about daily:

It kills you to see them grow up. But I guess it would kill you quicker if they didn't.
- Barbara Kingsolver

Mischa

You have a name!  Your daddy and I both love it, and even your big brother is learning how to say it.  Mischa, it means God's gift which you most certainly are.  I'm still iffy on your middle name because it sounds almost identical to your cousin's name and that really bothers me.  I'm human enough to admit that I don't like your daddy's sister so I don't want her thinking she had anything to do with your beautiful name.

We had a checkup yesterday and like usual you were being stubborn for the doc, he had a hard time finding your heartbeat but when he did it was like a war drum!  Loud and clear, little girl.  Your big brother got to hear it too and he thought it was so fun.

We've only got about two months before we meet baby girl, can you believe how fast it's going?  I can't.  We don't have your crib set up yet and we're in the middle of painting your room.  Daddy dropped a gallon of paint on your carpet yesterday and now you have a nice grey stain on the floor, but at least it matches the wall, right?

We love you, Mischa.  Keep growing big and healthy.